ptsd

I need to break free 

Just for a Staycation 

Just for a week. 

Cute solar floating pool lights. 

I’ve been doing Covid since 

2 Januarys ago. 

I am ready for a break. 

Colorado was canceled 

Again. Sooooo

Every week there is a shooting

In my part of town. 

And gunshots many nights. 

Especially on July 4th weekend. 

I always promise myself 

A nice get away. 

This year- I’m going through with it! 

So I don’t have to have wine to calm down. 

2 months no wine. No Advil. 

Fun in the sun. 

Fun in the pool. 

Sleep late. 

No housemate’s alarm going off

On the only chance I get 

To catch up on sleep. No comment. 

Leave the rats to the races for a while. 

Still working, but maybe closer

 to the job site. 

Freshman Food

No fridge at work. 

Same ole same ole. 

Dance with the once who bring ya! 

I’ve always had this as a back up. 

For 13 years now! 

Labs today. 

6 years ago my life changed forever 

In 1 second flat. Dogs. Fucking dogs. 

I thought I would be farther along. 

Living on an island maybe

Eating lobster and crab every day. 

And here I sit. 

With my bum leg - in a castle in a cloud. 

Ah well. 

I did a CBC, CMP, iron panel,

NMR - the new VAP 

Feratin - the new LDL

HA1C and CRP. 

This company is owned by a Keto group. 

So they cut out the middle man. 

All these standard online tests 

were $250 at Direct Labs. 

With Own Your Labs- about $150. 

Can’t beat that. 

After Covid - all the bets are off. 

Except one:

Don’t bet against me! 

I’m beginning to see there’s more to it 

Than maintaining weight. 

Which- I have done (+/- 15 pounds)

With a broken leg! 

And near fatal anemia! 

Bragadocious me. Lol. 

I’ll see myself out.