31 January 2020

tooth day

Leftover Chili 

Leftover Emotions 

SugarFree Jelly. 
I give this as gifts to Diabetics. 

It says the package is 
sealed to prevent leaks. 
Guess what? 
It leaked. 

I’m finally smart. 
After nearly 60 trips around the sun. 
I wore a “cleaning t shirt”
To prevent bleach splashes. 

Excited to have some coffee today. 

I get up to pee 
(Sorry - TMI)
Around 430 
And take my Trinity
And Seven Sages. 
And go back to bed 
To contemplate the origins
Of the Universe. 

About an hour later,
I’m “mos def” ready for coffee. 
I like the pour-over. 

Trying to take my coffee black. 
Might help. 

30 January 2020

throw up day

Since my last blog 
I have maintained the integrity 
Of my low carb diet 
And tried to drink water
And even reached out to a friend. 
Tip of the fedora to Sean! 

I kept my area clean 
And make the the two princes
Had their every need met. 

This one is mad cuz daddy sneak him treats. 
And now he’s hungry. And mad. 
Why we give treats -
 when the kids won’t eat their real food? 

I reached out to Cindy
And she has the same thing. 
Bitching Co-Workers. 
They ruin every job. 
She threw up in the parking lot
At work because she dreaded it. 

Part of my plan to reduce anxiety
Is to think about something else. 
Anything. A song. A plan. 

Happy Campers, though. 

So yes. No job is worth this. 
But every job seems to be
Contaminated with vile human disgust. 
From nurse to nurse. 
So we have to learn to deal with
Assholes and Bitches. 
Because they are literally everywhere. 

It’s their planet. 
We just live on it. 

29 January 2020

planning day

Things to buy that make life simpler. 

Lap time with my good boy. 

Trader Joe’s. 
Goat Cheese. With Blueberries. 
Going to do some food prep later. 

The yard is done 
The house is done. 
I’m ready to get back to work. 
Couple of last things. The car. 
It needs attention. 

And I inherited a blog. 
Quitting Sugar. 
I’m goi t to tweek it today
And start blogging there. 

Sean Anderson always blogs that 
He maintained the integrity 
and boundaries of his diet etc. 

I have too! 

28 January 2020

clean day

The WingStop by my house
Has bulletproof glass. 

Ready for beef. 
Probably today. 
Or tomorrow. 
I don’t have hunger like I once did. 

Just nosy buddies. 

Why are people like this? 
I never hope to understand. 
And yet - here we are. 

Rainy day stuff. 
I have a lady
Who helps me clean. 
She’s been helping me for years. 
We’re friends by now. 

She’s coming today. 
We deep clean 
4 or 5 times a year. 

There’s no place for extra stuff 
In this house. 
The house is big, but the layout 
Reflects a more 1950’s mindset. 
Master bedroom with Water Closet. . 
 One big bedroom,
And one small bedroom
In case you have 3 kids. 

If not, you have a sewing room. 
Or a guest bedroom. 
(The small one is my room.)

Also, coat closets and built ins. 
The Family Room. AKA the Den. 
And the quintessential Living Room
That no one ever sits in. 
You know- with the big, open windows. 
And picture books on the coffee table. 

So yeah. Time to clean the house. 
Every time we do this, 
I downsize a little bit more. 
Keep some stuff. Seasonal things. 
Christmas stuff finally gets out away. 

I’m a big fan of sites like 
CraigsList and FaceBook MarketPlace. 
You can buy something for cheap,
Use it, and sell it back. 
Free Trade! 
Or just give it away. 

The trick is to be Zen 
And not get too attached. 
Cuz she’s never coming back. 
Never ever. 

27 January 2020

off days

I cancelled all my appointments 
For today and will just chill. 

The trip. 
There’s some criss-crossing. 
But basically this. 
My little Subaru gets 
About 500 miles per tank. 
400 with the AC (and mountains) 

The river raft trip. 
My mother took one in Denver
When she was 60. 
Her job went to Colorado 
For an aging seminar. 
She fell in during a rapid crossing
And the guide just scooped her out 
Like a puppy- she always said. 
Mine will have no such rapids. 

The Continental Divide
As seen through The Rockies. 

Denver is on one side. 
The river raft tour is on the other. 
That makes sense. 

Why not see a show?
DCI is active in Denver. 
Drums Along The Rockies. 
I’m going there with an old 
High School friend. 
A drummer, in fact. 

We’re going to eat and play 
And gossip about everyone. 

I realized I don’t like my patient. 
He’s a kid and I love him. 
But I don’t like him. 
Well, not all the time.
I don’t always like his behavior. 

That was causing all kinds of guilt. 
These kids get into puberty 
And the hormones are raging
If they’re a quadriplegic-
There’s no place for that energy to go. 

My other case did the same thing. 
But I must say- 
Boys are 10 times tougher. 
This is my first boy case. 

And guess what! 
It’s OK that I don’t like it. 
I just do my job
And let him work 
Through the paces. 

26 January 2020

upper colorado river float

The key word here is “float!”
As in mostly Class 2 (sissy) rapids 

I think a small moon phase 
Would show more stars. 

The travel brochures are super cool! 
The trip will be 3 days and 2 nights. 
30 miles of river. 
Lots of stops and campfires. 
I’m going to bring some tuna
And tell them I’m LC! 

stupid day

Another day
Another Chaffle 

I’m adding an excursion 
To my summer trip. 

An overnight river raft trip
In the Grand Canyon 
Is often in the thousands. 
Big Bucks. 

The Upper Colorado River
Excursions are much less. 
Maybe permits and fees? 

So in addition to a few
Mini-excursions, hiking etc- 
I have added a 2 night raft trip. 

I’m really too old
For Pediatric Search and Rescue-
Trying to find some bright little kid
Who remains trapped in a body
That won’t cooperate with his mind ... 

Some Good Will Hunting
Story of triumph and winning. 
The truth is- most people 
Just don’t come through tragedy
And come out on top. 
It’s hard enough to get though each day. 

This kid was fussing today 
when my shift started at 6 am. 
He was covered with 3 blankets. 
And it’s mild weather outside. 
I’ve got the window cracked! 
Birds are singing. 
No rain. 
Why 3 blankets? 

Also the thermometer was under his arm. 
Life is hard enough without having
Bad Nurses - HORRIBLE Nurses. 

I am ready to give up. Again. 
So I focus on work and getting away. 

The only thought I’ve had 
For a year is trying to figure out
If I should stay or go 
In this anxiety provoking, 
All-consuming case. 

I just want to go to work, 
Do a good job, 
And go the fuck home. 

25 January 2020

day on

Talked to the family 
About bringing food to work. 
I can’t eat at 10pm anymore. 

Deconstructed Reuben 

Pork Rinds with Cream Cheese 

It was good. 


Ye ole long shot 

Finally settling in 
Good work routine.