falling through time

Panic attack. 

Lasted like hours.   

Pulse would not come down. 

A wee little food might help. 

I just stayed in the garage 

Listening to Outlander Soundtrack. 

And not watching the news. 

I already know the news. 

yikes

Dude. I am ready to go home. 

Coffee. Blends. 

Add to this Back Seed Oil. 

They say cures everything but death. 

Chili. 

Not good. Not bad.  

Just meh - 

Just for fun. Some masks. 

Nurses are running out of masks. 

And the president of the Electoral College 

Says so wash and sanitize

Paper masks. Incredible. 

And here we are. 

At the starting gate. 

Get ready! 

I need to go home and get supplies. 

good advice

I’m finally growing up. 

Finally at the age where I say

“I had better not do that”

Instead of “What the heck! 

Let’s see what happens !”  

There was a line in Outlander

Early on in Season 1

when Murtagh told Jaime 

That some girls don’t grow up

Till they’re 50. 

Well- some don’t even grow up then. 

Or ever. 

At least I’m finally getting through 

If only to myself. 

A wiser nurse told me

My July trip 

Will probably be postponed. 

Or cancelled. 

If not for the CV19,

Then for the tsunami of 

Economic downsizing 

That is bound to happen 

In the months to come. 

I hope I’m wrong. 

She also told me I should go home. 

No need to help out 

If the family doesn’t appreciate me. 

I can’t be awake at 1 am

Then up at 6 am 

When they’re baking a cake 

Because the teen girl was bored

And wanted to stir up drama. 

The parents don’t see how 

Manipulating she is. 

That’s ok. Not my worry. 

My worry is to take these blends 

And coffee. 

Peel and Spice from 

Interstellar Blends 

Has Flavonoids etc 

My other worry is to get some eggs. 

I am going to get some eggs this week. 

(I WILL sell this house today!) 

People are going crazy for supplies and food. 

Time to be calm. 

I’ve been fasting at work 

Since it’s good to fast. 

No food anyways. 

I’ve had coffee and chili. 

And no access to a scale. 

We’ll see!