06 May 2023

and so it begins


Lovely trip to Red Oak
Maybe 30 minutes from Dallas. 
Sale on meat. 
And I needed to drive Elaine’s car. 


Hybrids need to be driven 
43 to 65 MPH to charge 
The big, expensive battery. 


Maria helped put my room right. 
I leave the radio on for the babies. 
They love classical music. 








Which means my closet. 

All my blog stuff put away 
For May and June. 




My reward. 







The nut-job night nurse 
Is gone. I can’t believe it. 
Mean, selfish, ignorant. 
Nurses are literally dropping else like flies. 
Like dead flies. 
And guess what? 
This is Nurses Week. 
Boo-Hiss! 

05 May 2023

last day off


This Fat Cat sat on the 
Window ledge for hours. 
It was 85° inside yesterday. 
Hotter inside than out. 




Had trouble sleeping. 
Got up up to take an Advil. 
(I might have one a month.)
It worked. Until 0730, that is…
When my Housemate woke me up. 
Wonders if I had seen his wallet. 
And maybe he left it at home. 
No and no. And no more sleep. 




















I took this a few years ago. Lol. 


The worst problem with Atkins 
Is adding carbs back. 
It’s hard. So I just stay at
Induction Levels. 
At a certain point
- the tipping point - 
You are not in ketosis. 
But you also don't have enough 
glucose for energy. 
Hence the energy slump
Hence the cravings. 


It is like a hybrid car 
with not enough gas
And a dead battery. 
It can’t access either. 

So I just stay low. 
And know that 30 grams of carbs a day 
is my magic number. 
When I did snake juice fasting,
I learned that even as busy as I am,
I only need about 500 calories a day. 
Not the 1200 a day they say. 
That’s exactly the problem! 
Whatever is wrong in our metabolism 
- whatever that missing link is - 
We lack the ability to 
utilize glucose properly. 
Anywhere along the chain of events. 
Duh. Obviously. 

So I started my day with a bang. 
And some covefe. And cats. 

The mom (on the case) 
begged the nurse to stay. 
The dad begged the nurse to stay. 
Just one month. Put off your 
Elective surgery for one month. 
Just a few weeks. 
After all, she has had the problem for years. 
I asked her. (Not begged)
The other nurse asked her. 
In the midst of this - she called out. 
Im already working 84 hours a week. 
Plus driving. (45 minutes each way.)

Unless you’re struck by a car,
Or a dog, or a bomb,
Or your appendix ruptures,
Many- if not most- procedures 
Can wait one month. 




04 May 2023

no land in site


I love the rain. 
Please, Heavens open up
And let me sleep 
To the gentle sound of rain…
And Telemann. 


I listen to Baroque Music 
99% of the time. 
With some Classical
Mozart and Beethoven thrown in. 


Ken Wapnick, a founder of 
A Course In Miracles, 
Said that Beethoven’s music 
Reaches up from earth to heaven. 
And Mozart reaches us from 
Heaven to down to earth. 
I agree. 


Im happy that my weight loss journey 
Started at A Course Conference 
Wayyyy back in 2009. 
When Ken was alive and kicking it. 
I’ve been a Course student
Since 1990.  




Kratom to sleep. 
And the past few days,
Kratom in the day.


Ahhh Spring into Summer. 
And the fine folks at Monster 
Bring out the fashion show. 
Hello, lovely ladies!


I still believe my CAC
Cardiac Calcium Score
Is perfect Zero-
Because of the 1000mg of Taurine
I get every day from Monsters. 


Send me a sign!
Oops. There it is.  


On the transport van yesterday. 








Cute socks 


Night Nurse had the windows shut. 
85° inside. Stale air. 
High respirations. Dirty shame. 
But they always say “He’s fine.”



Baby Boi came to give me 
Mothers Day kisses. 
Which lasted about 20 seconds. 
I think this cat is like 3 feet tall
All stretched out. 
All raw carnivore!


Egg Bites with SF syrup 
And Fake Cheese. 
Fake fake on fake. 
No heartburn. Which is amazing. 
No upset system. I actually felt great! 
But its Kids Stuff. 
Don't need to keep buying it. 


Well hello there, baby! 
Lol 

Last day off tomorrow 
Before I am confined again. 
I don’t mind 
But in a way I do. 
If we switch companies 
-a very likely scenario-
I will go with the family. 
The group I’m with doesn't 
Believe in raises. 
Their stock went from 
$16 ti $12 to $6 to $1
To 89 cents a share. 
They know exactly what they’re doing. 
Vulture Culture. 
So no real loss. 
At this point, being an Uber Driver 
Sounds pretty good.