20 November 2024

incredible day


Frozen Dinners. 
The new thing. 
At least until I get my kitchen back. 
Right now I’d settle for hot water. 


I love the sleep and rest I get.  
Show me another 64 year “old lady”
Her sleep and steps. lol. 


We will have a granny throw down. 


My Yield Max Covered Call ETFs
Are humming right along. 


I can see myself doing stocks 
And being a full time trader. 

I never dreamed I would 
want to leave Nursing. 
And yet- here we are. 
At least my little patient is better. 
At least the drunk housemate is gone. 
This week I’m working on
increasing my Frustration Tolerance 
And Impulse Control. 
Or else I would have resigned 
and driven to New Mexico  
to start a life living on my car. 
Maybe work at Taco Bell or something. 
Probably not a great plan. 
I need to learn how to stay 
And deal with things. 


19 November 2024

never ending shit suow


Sometimes I am that person
But sometimes I need that 
From someone else. 
Life has been a seemingly endless 
Period of me having to 
Be the bigger person,
Suck it up.  It’s ME
having to make the adjustments. 
And me having to take the high road. 

It’s up to me to say Yes I’ll play along
Or no I’m tired of this game. 
🎭 
When I get upset, the first thing 
people say to me is Calm Down 
Then ask if I have eaten 
Or if I need a nap
Like you would ask a crazy person. 
Or some old grandma. 


They want to blame something for the error. 
When other people get upset, 
I try to validate them, and listen
With the intention of understanding. 
And even allow a little 
Zen transference to take place. 


Like I am You
You are Me
We are One. 
OOOMMMMMM


This little meal snack thing. 
I was told at work I could keep 
a few meals here for those late nights
And spontaneous double shifts. 
Where they can’t find a Nurse. 

Clean communication. 
Can I keep this here? I use this every day. 
Yea of course you can! 
😮
I came in to find my stuff
On the counter and everyone asking 
What it was? It is trash? 
Is this yours?
Doesn’t have to stay in the cabinet?
🚩🚩
People find comfort (joy? peace?)
In having the external world just so-so. 
While the inside world is upside down. 
We love to hold on to our special relationship 
Jo matter what they cost us. 


Finally. Quality sleep. 
With Kratom , less is more. 
You just have to let the old stuff clear. 
And sometimes that takes days. 
Just like with Glucose. 
The cravings WILL continue. 
Until it’s gone from your system. 

Memory page today. 
Ahhh such innocent times. 

Temu’s finest 

Days like this it’s all I can do 
To just escape 
And move away, 
work a quaint little job
In some small town in New Mexico. 
Just out in my time and go home. 
Of the project fails, it fails. 
If the baby dies, she dies. 
If the drunk rants, he rants. 
Flip everyone the bird and say 
“Shove it up your old wazoo!” 
And walk on by. 





18 November 2024

monday monday


So many syringes. 
But none that fit. 
That’s always how it goes. 


Too much and not enough. 


They say in AlAnon 
One is too much and
1000 isn’t enough. 




Repairs are starting. 




My fave pic 

Got a new jacket. 
Somewhere in Yosemite 
Some jacket thief 
Is going around with my jacket. 

Hahaha the joke is on him 
The sleeves were altered. 
And he is going to be like. T Rex.