09 June 2011

in the gloaming

Went to CrossFit tonight.
Stood on the tread mill
Belt went one way....
I went the other way.....


Clipped my chin.
Caught myself with my already injured arm.
Pulled something out of place in my arm ...again....


Had to sit out - my heart was racing so
I was almost sick -  No - I was sick!


Got home - put on the ice pack...
Took Advil. Drank some protein 
before I went to bed. Early.


Feel like the fattest, oldest, clumsiest person in the class.
No one else falls when they are just standing there. 
Just me. Boom! 
No one even saw me fall. *plop*


Humiliating. Embarrassing. Not quite disgusted with myself - 
cuz that's not how I roll.... but I do understand how that happens,
when it does. I'm not used to being last. I know someone has to be last.
But it was never me.


It's easy to believe I might be in way over my head.
I know I'm not. I know it's not too late.
I know it only gets better. I know this.


I just didn't know I had let myself go (physically)
to the point where something so small (seemingly)
could set me back so far!  (ouch!)


Off to nurse the pain - again....
Florence Nightingale called this
"Adding insult to injury." Twice now.


Hope your night is great!
I'm fine - and I'll be fine... really...
I guess every "comeback" must have 
a few "setbacks" in there, somewhere!

23 comments:

  1. Anne, I'm going to have to come glue your feet to the ground. Industrial superglue. Get well rest well

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  2. Ouchies. One of these days, Anne, you are going to look back on this and see how far you've come with Cross Fit. And hey, if it were easy, everyone would be doing it. And they're not. Hugs.

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  3. When I took a Kick Boxing Fitness class I was the oldest and fattest in there. It was a toouchey feelings kind of group and we expressed our goals and journey along the way. I had nothing but respect and support from my younger and fitter team mates. Be proud that you have the guts to go for it.

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  4. oh lady lady, you have had a few spills lately! Get better

    (((((hugs))))

    Karla @ Daily thoughts

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  5. hey bud....(that was a great movie btw). My oldest daughter has always been clumsy. one time when she was four, she was standing in the middle of the room...NOTHING AROUND HER AT ALL. And she tripped..over her own foot. it happens. It is just a part of who you are. Love yourself...and be careful. ;o)

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  6. oh shite, I can hear your pain in your words. I think good for you for going strong, and I know you can do anything. sorry that you fell and I know how frustrating it can be. don't be too hard on yourself. sometimes its just your body saying hey. i hope you feel better soon. With my cataplexy I sometimes fall when I am sitting and I just have to say. what the hell was that....lol my friend. all will be good. lots of ice.

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  7. Oh, no! You're getting hurt a lot. Here, I'm gonna wrap you up in bubble wrap. It will keep you safe. ; ) (Breathing tube included).

    get better...feel better...

    Healing hugs...

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  8. Ouch, ouch, OUCH! So sorry to hear about this. I know this won't stop you, though. It's less embarrassing and painful than being 200+ lbs and not moving at all. Feel better soon, Anne! *hugs*

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  9. Well, ya know, if you would eat some carbs none of this would happen!
    They're THAT powerful. :D

    Try not to be such a klutz, eh? Get it together, Superwoman.

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  10. I am an aire tripper. Bet you didn't know that, now did ya?

    Nurse those wounds and bounce back, Anne!

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  11. Sorry that happened but you know, at least you're out there doing it when a lot are not!

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  12. I look up to you so much. I know what it's like to fall down with little to no provocation ... that's just part of my life. They say that being able to laugh at one's self is important. It's hard to laugh when it hurts and makes you sick. I made a lot of jokes after falling down the stairs though.

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  13. Thanks, everyone for your kind words.
    I'm much better this morning.

    I did notice that I fall - for no reason - since I went blonde!
    Maybe it's true what they say!
    Tripped on the air!

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  14. Just read this...glad to see your update this morning, that you're much better! Dont feel badly or discouraged. Everyone has to start somewhere and the important thing is that you START. You're doing great, and I look up to you too. So onward and upward, and take good care!!!

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  15. Poor you! Get better soon. (Hugs)

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  16. So sorry to hear you fell I did the same thing even after going to the gym for like a year and a half at the time. I'm a good faller and I'm not blond lol. I've fallen and had my co-worker ask "what did you fall over" and we looked down and there was a pebble lol yep I fall over pebbles lol. Glad you are ok. *hugs*

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  17. CrossFit is no easy feat, Anne. You are doing good work and I hope you heal up quickly!

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  18. Are you ok?? You will get to where you want to be!

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  19. Oh, I'm sorry to hear this. How frustrating that must be for you... not even over the previous one, and now another on top.

    For me, that happens alot, and I fight the frustration of it, and feeling like I can never get AHEAD of it! Yet... we eventually do. In time, we get better.

    So... I hope you heal fast, Anne. Take gentle care, and I hope you can get lots of rest and TLC.

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  20. Oh jeez, I know that feeling. I'm just starting to get back into my regular workouts and feel like I have to left feet, no breath, or the ability to focus when I'm working out.

    I hope you're okay and feeling better. I'm cheering you on. xo jj

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