This is another story for another day.... but .....
I thought I had done so well -
and indeed I have - but I have soooo far to go!
I feel in many ways I am just starting.
I am not discouraged - not at all!
Just becoming aware
of how my being heavy changed so many things -
Up till now, it was enough activity for the day
to walk down and back up the stairs -
to make a trip to Jack in the Box for dinner.
Maybe go to WalMart.
Why not order Wing-stop... again?
Now I find there is much work to do!
Even standing up with proper posture
is not easy - after all those years of slouching.
In CrossFit BootCamp we put one hand on our diaphragm area,
And one hand on our abdomen to help focus on proper breathing.
I think I still have some layers to get to - to really "feel" it.
Tighten my core? I AM pulling in my core!
Are you kidding me?
In CrossFit they use a pvc stick to get you to stand up straight -
Head, should blades, and butt should touch the stick
Then bend over - keeping that alignment!
Simple stuff - but not easy!
Just like my back and legs were not made to carry all that
extra weight, my little organs were not made to deal with
all that food - and cokes and sugar!
In the diet aspect of weight loss - LoCarb was easy for me.
Just open a can. Boil an egg. Fry a burger.
At least now, I'm getting my metabolism to settle down.
And maybe heal a little from years of abuse.
But now, I am trying to cook "fancy" things -
Things that require a little skill!
Maybe put together a meal - a menu!
And not everything I cook turns out good -
I'm not afraid to fail -
or learn - or try.....
But lately I am in the "beginner's mode"
quite alot, it seems!
I suppose this is where the "mental" conditioning comes in.
"Check your ego at the door" - type stuff.
A different version of "me" would have quit
this mess - when I was younger...maybe acting like I didn't care -
But really just afraid to go through this very phase!
Hope your day is great - thanks for reading!