project and projections

You know the drill....

Looks like I'm "chomping at the bit" to get done!

Lots and lots of elbow grease!

Elbow ketosis, maybe?

 Finally put that Valance up in the work-out room.

It looks pretty good - I bought something ready-made .

Anna's Linens is da bomb-dot-com!

Especially when they have a sale.

Now I know that I am dreaming....

(beyond a shadow of a doubt)

All that caulk I re-did when I moved here last Spring - 

It all disintegrated.

Link to the happy story-

Caulk doesn't just "disintegrate."

But this stuff did. All the work I did last Spring

and Summer - I ended up redoing.

All.Of.It.

Cabinets and Pantry - all squared away

I built several shelves, as well!

Me and my trusty little saw.

Condensed the "stuff" down to a couple of shelves

and a few boxes. Papers and Nursing supplies.

Which are all put up, at last! Boxed and labeled.

All the 3X, 2X, XL, and most of the L clothes are gone!

Anything that is stained or messed up is outta here!

My little cubby-hole closet.

It's now an ironing and sewing center. (link)

Yes - I can sew, too! Just a few hems.... nothing fancy.

Someone said I should go on and marry my self....

I can build, and cook, and sew, etc.

Maybe that's not such a bad idea.

I mean, I get along much better with myself these days.

I don't sabotage myself, or work against myself so much.

And I'm alot more forgiving to me!

I trust myself, and what I know is true.

And I even like myself at times.

I think I'd make a fine catch.

And the best news of all.....

Some unscrupulous maintenance guy

(or someone)

snuck in over time and drank all this.

2L of Crown.

Almost the same amount of Hennessy.

All the Absolute, and the Canadian Whiskey.

Actually, this would explain alot of things

that have gone missing over time.

And how some things magically show up

weeks later! *Ta-Da!*

And I don't even drink!

Maybe a shot every now and then.

For insomnia or something.

I keep the stuff around from an era gone by -

from when my friend Randy would come by.

(Another one of the suicide club.)

But this summer (link) I made a solemn effort to focus on 

my weight loss and fitness. And to get back to basics 

(again and again...) So I know I didn't drink it!

And yet the stuff vanished... imagine that....

They also took most of the mason jars that I use

to take my protein powder in! (link)

I only have a few left. Whoever took the alcohol

maybe took in out in the jars?

Why is this the best news ever?

Because I  suddenly have "proof"

that I wasn't losing things, and losing my mind.

So to speak.

Actually, the proof was always there.

I just suddenly chose to believe it.

Gave myself permission to.

Sometimes, the truth is somehow just right there.

Gently waiting for us to acknowledge it.

Sometimes, it's obvious and undeniable.

Calls for a conclusion? Perhaps.

And that's ok.

It feels like I have been let out of jail!

So that's why it's the best news ever.

What an arduous path to the truth this has been.

Now I can say there is no conflict in me.

100% none. If only for a moment.

And wow - my headache is gone, too!

Imagine that! Yay!