My dinner companion had to change plans.
The Mighty Double Cheeseburger.
So I had this. And some wine.
And some coffee.
Salad is good. Had that as well.
Planning a Finger Food Feast this weekend!
Planning a Birthday Party for my Bestie!
Planning planning planning.
I’m so “casual” it’s a wonder
I ever got anything done. Ever.
In my whole life.
I’m not the “lazy” kind of casual.
I’m the kind that works without
Somehow having formed an attachment
To the outcome.
I never wanted anything to the point
I had to work at it. I loved working
Toward goals, like preparing a piece
For recital, as a young Music Major.
And I worked hard, many hours a day.
For months and years.
Or when I built (repaired) a house.
I loved the work, but I’m no Alpha.
So I never really made it
“Do or Die!”
Like in Nursing School,
Which, by all accounts
Is never easy...
I never had to study or prepare at all.
It’s like starting a relationship
By playing it by ear and wondering
If marriage is out of the question.
Even starting Low Carb,
By being stranded in the
Grand Canyon, in a snowstorm,
and not having access to food....
It was a passive decision to start.
And not something that I researched
And decided to dedicate myself to.
Wow. I’m sitting here, writing this,
I’m stunned actually,
And never saw this pattern before in me.
Lots of people start school and never finish.
Or start diets and never stick with them.
Or hobbies. Or careers.
Or relationships.
Probably would explain why most people
Have closets full of junk and abandoned “toys”.
I personally think Americans have a
messy and haphazard lot in life.
So many things can go wrong.
And any little setback
Could derail absolutely everything.
So much is largely unregulated.
And there’s no safety net.
Kinda “Dog Eat Dog!”
Or “Buyer Beware!”
No real skills are taught,
Nor handed down, as they once were.
Things change so fast,
Moms can’t hand down skills anymore.
Can you teach someone
to have a strong work ethic?
I guess we take the tests and hope for the best.
Small wonder we are unhappy.
I have grown friends who can’t manage a household.
They have no idea how it runs
Or how to maintain it.
They just hope to keep up with repairs.
But they never see it coming.
Most repairs could be prevented,
But we are oblivious to the concept of
Preventive Maintenance.
I have grown friends who can’t budget finances.
Money just magically shows up
And leaves again
Just as mysteriously.
They pray, but mostly for miracles
That would remove the effects
Of whatever indulgence
They just allowed.
I entered a challenge (that I made)
And then turned around
And violated every aspect of it.
My ego is like a teenage boy
Who doesn’t want to mow the lawn,
And would rather sit inside
Playing video games
And eating ice cream.
Then bitch to mom
That I need my allowance.
If we had a grown child
who sat around smoking pot,
And slacking off, we would hate it.
But now, we’re middle-aged women
Sitting around drinking wine
And eating junk...
Which is just as mind-numbing.
Maybe worse.
We’re supposed to know better.
And do better.
Wow. What a breakthrough!
Now.
Now what the hell do I do
With this information!!
