crazier days

Why trade 8 hours of quality sleep

For 20 minutes of buzz? 

Wine just makes no sense. 

It’s not even worth the cost and weight gain. 

I get nothing from it. 

My vices are in a different category. 

Even though I saw her buried with my own eyes, 

I will think there is a chance

The phone will ring and they somehow

Made a mistake. And she’s ok. 

It’s absolutely insane 

How the mind can trick us. 

As a Hospice Nurse, 

I know this well. 

I’m living by rote for now,

Just going through the motions. 




These nice families want to feed us. 

To foster us. 

I can’t eat what they eat. 

Strangely, they can’t eat it either. 

They’re all obese,

And on insulin. 

I can’t go back to that. 

(The obesity. 

I was never on insulin.)

So I start a new case with a new baby 

Tomorrow. 

Little twin premie girls. 

No one wants babies 

Because they can break your heart. 

I guess I’ll soon be heartless.