baby come back

This was a stand for her to use

Can’t sleep so I contemplate 

The origins of the universe. 

Only one conclusion is possible: 

This is Hell. 

Also this is NYE. 

The sounds of fireworks and gunshots 

Are so loud - it’s like a war zone 

Outside my window. 

Working with kids releases oxytocin

- or something-

And keeps you young. 

Playing around with the Baby 

At Children’s Medical Center. 

My brain can’t grapple the idea 

That I’ll never see her again. 

So even Hospice Nurses 

Are not immune from death. 

This was my first 

And it will be my last

 Pediatric Hospice case. 

I’ve cried for people dying.

But the shock of this 

Is nearly too much for me.

And I am in a good place 

With diet and food...