Mine is a little lower.
Perfectly bilateral.
I am certain I overused a muscle.
Lifting my patient the last day.
He likes to push down,
When we transfer to the wheelchair.
And he pushes down
With all his little might.
Now this.
I suspect the pain will last
about 2 weeks.
As pain does.
Last night I couldn’t settle down.
High pulse.
I had some Keto Ice Cream
About 6 hours prior.
It sat “on” my stomach
Until here, and I threw up
and up and up and up and up.
The red is awake.
It hurts to move.
Ice helps. Heat helps.
But I threw up all that Advil
-again-
Big ulcer is back.
I could just feel my heart pounding.
Took my Blood Glucose.
Wasn’t that.
Just wait for it to pass,
I guess.
I worked on the letter
To the State for 3 hours.
I “sat” on it overnight
To make sure I still felt good
about sending it.
I do.
I will probably find a new case.
Which is sad for me, the patient,
And the family.
But I can’t keep going like this.
Most of the time in life,
we have so make adjustments.
Set goals.
Deal with consequences.
I was never super aggressive
With anything but getting my
Nursing License.
And even then I barely studied.
I’m glad I didn’t need to reinvent myself
To become “super successful.”
I never fully bought into that lie.
Just happy to have a decent car,
And a safe place to stay,
Away from chaos and bullying.
And some good food to eat.
All my life’s goals are already met.
I made it this far
With no permanent disease
Or disability.
My body is strong
And I like being healthy.
This will pass.
Hugs.
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