During Cross Fit yesterday,
Whilst doing Hands-Free Front Squats,
And the bar kept sliding forward...
It occurred to me that I am ..... what's that word?
"Still Stuck." That's it.
Despite my best effort, I am the slowest one in class...
Same as always. Normally I don't mind.
This weight loss journey seems to be more about
taming my ego - than taming my appetite....
Which, in the end, are probably one in the same.
[Cool Pic from the Interwebs]
Still, I keep falling farther behind, because the class is moving so far ahead.
And simple movements are not that simple. Jumping rope.
Running 5 minutes without stopping. Sprinting.
I can only hold a plank for a minute or so...
This - coming from a Fattie who a year or so ago
could hardly bend down to tie my own shoes.
I once paid a guy to help carry my groceries up the steps.
I work two jobs... not easy jobs....
But then again, no one goes into Nursing to get rich quick.
I am doing the weight loss "thing," and thanks to
Atkins, and now, ZeroCarb - it's working out for me...
I'm happy, (enough) and I have a great attitude
(at least I think I do)
I try to solve problems as they arise...
I try to see through excuses when I make them...
And not cheat - it's never worth it.... ever.
I work on Posture and Breathing and Balance -
And all kinds of things that are so simple.
This is not a negative or self-loathing post.
I don't even use that kind of motivation on myself.
[More cool pics from the InterWebs]
I get the motivation. I really do.
But still.... Maybe fitness is like IQ or musical talent.
Sure - you can expand your limits...
But there is a stopping point where the improvements
kinda stop - or slow down - and the maintenance begins.
I don't know.
Maybe it's like Weight-Loss itself.
How low can you go?
Do you really want to know?
And to what end?
I like a good challenge. And the growth it can bring.
I went through the Army's Basic Training at age 28.
From a completely sedentary lifestyle.
And I still wore a size 16 even then.
Oh - and speaking of weigh-ins...
I lost 5 full pounds of purest fat
according to the CrossFit scales yesterday!
And only half a pound of muscle.
Class (and weigh-in) is late in the day - at 4:30 pm
Which is the worst time to weigh -
Plus I'm fully clothed - and hydrated.
The house scales at work showed 8 pounds loss.
Either way, I'll take it!
That - in only 3 weeks of ZeroCarb.