day off

Slept late. 

Pure bliss. 

Woke up thinking 

about all the places I can go. 

I had a girl talk with the home owner. 

We’re Golden. 

Her words. 

I still hate unrest at home. 

At home in my little room. 

Home is where you can come 

to escape from problems. 

I guess that’s another fantasy ended. 

No one really ever said 

Or believed 

That homes are problem free. 

It’s nice to believe, 

however, that at home,

You live with partners. Equals. 

While you might not always agree, 

There’s safety and respect 

And you are thought of as 

 a valued member 

Of a sacred team. 

And there’s a promise that 

you’ll work out any 

knots or entanglements 

That may come by. 

Communication is the first step. 

When you live with people 

that are emotionally unavailable,

All the bets are off. 

He thinks I didn’t feed the cats 

because I’m mad at him. 

Soon enough, they’ll be 

his responsibility anyways. 

A lovely snack at work. 

I won’t be doing anymore 3 day fasts. 

They’re too hard. 

Especially in the heat. 

This is an accountability blog. 

Here’s me when I was 

younger and in love. 

2014 - before I broke my leg. 

This is what 10 pounds extra 

Looks like on me. 

I’m not worried. 

I’m ready.