back to fasting

No food, no wine. 

Too sick to eat. 

So why no fast? 

The fan in the room broke.

I had cold chills all shift. 

Queequeg fasted

before he started his journey. 

My boy is really loving Moby Dock. 

We read every day. 

It’s the highlight of the shift. 

A quiet night. 

My housemate still

 is not speaking to me. 

The old silent treatment! 

Back to high school- lol. 

It’s probably 2 years overdue. 

The silence is golden. 

My plan is to do OMAD

Mostly Catnivore. 

I should probably fast 

at least one day a week

For maintenance. 

If I’m going to use this tool. 

And if it’s good enough for Queequeg,

It’s plenty good for me. 

jazz band happy

I actually ate breakfast today. 

And I felt like a million bucks. 

Jerks. 

The Angel of Dallas 

I keep thinking about this. 

86° F in here and no fan. 

My ass. 

You’re welcome. 

8 years ago and now. 

All in all, I am happy. 

The failure rate in weight loss is like 90%

Even in Low Carb, it’s high. 

Sadly. Too high. 

Everyone dreads the ReGain. 

Most people regain all the weight they lost. 

And then some. 

It’s the “then some” 

That kills your pride. 

My magic number is 155. 

I stay in that range. 

A little over, I look like a toad. 

A little under I look like a hottie.

And “At My Age”. 

Lol. I was born in 1960. 

I should be retired! 

At least I’m not tired! 

happy new year

Love those 12 hour nights. 

Bacon for Breakfast 

Let’s try this again. 

No cats to knock it down this time. 

A little rain. 

A little TV. 

A little FaceBook. 

I took out the bulk trash,

Cleaned the cat box, 

Changed the air filter. 

And did all the things you do

When you have a new month. 

I called for my interview 

With the ICE people. 

And I’m not sure I’m a good fit. 

I’m not bilingual. 

And that would be

A first order priority. 

It was awesome enough 

To even be considered. 

The housemate never has spoken to me 

Since I asked him to stop making his noise. 

And that’s fine. 

It doesn’t even hurt my feelings. 

It’s actually a relief. 

Next week I’m sorting things out in my room 

So I don’t have to use the kitchen for coffee

Or anything in the morning. 

interstellar blends

Ceremonial Grade Green Tea. 

Matcha. 

Pine Pollen. 

Trinity. 

My fave. 

It’s a mushroom blend. 

I used nootropics since 1995. 

And I love them.

I see the value. 

Nebula. Seven Sages. 

Nebula. Thermo. 

I mix them up every day 

A different blend

So I don’t develop a tolerance. 

Well. That’s the theory. 

I’m certainly not an herbalists. 

But they help with energy 

And clarity. 

Interstellar Blends. 

I am not associated with them at all. 

I just like them. 

I do some modified dry fasting 

And they use this. 

I tried the dry fasting 

But it’s too hot at work. 

Soon. When it’s not over 100° F   

I do believe in dry fasting.

I try to limit my water. 

12 hours dry. 

But really super hydrated 

on the other 12. 

More to come! 

NSV day

The secret to a good sleep 

Is not to eat too late at night. 

Or drink. 

So you don’t have to go pee. 

Problem solved. 

Even had a nice bright salad. 

No croutons. 

Planning for the future 

When you are involved with 

Unpredictable people 

Is hard. 

But we’re used to doing hard things. 

You have to make 2 sets of plans. 

IF someone’s spouse (or family) dies...

And IF they leave them a small fortune...

THEN that person 

MAY OR MAY NOT 

Stay ... or go....

If they leave, they’ve more than likely 

Been planning it all along. 

But they make it look like it 

Was spontaneous. Why?

To blame you and justify 

cutting you off. 

I used to think the current politics 

Don’t represent the will of the people. 

Well, in a way- they very much do. 

They represent the part 

that grabs all they can 

And micromanaged everyone. 

But not themselves. 

Some animals are more 

Equal than other animals. 

Having said that, I was recruited 

By a Travel Nurse Company 

That lands government contracts. 

I guess because I’m Army. 

They want to interview me 

For a nursing position in an 

ICE Detention Center. 

I would love love love to go. 

This company also has the contracts

For the IHS - Indian Health Services. 

So they’re big players. 

I have an telephone interview 

Later today. I’m excited! 

If I stay or if I go, 

If I do Travel Nursing

Or just vacation...

I sit content. 

I’m happy to go or stay. 

Based on my choice. 

Not the will of something completely 

Out of my control. 

Like someone else’s crazy 

Gaslighting behavior. 

I guess that’s the biggest NSV

I’ve ever had. 

I’m fine. And I’ll create ways

To be fabulous either way. 

I constructed it such that no 

Borderline Personality type can 

Sabotage or trick or pull the rug out. 

I wish I had learned this when I was 30. 

Better late than never. 

But I’m kinda a slow learner. 

It wasn’t too long ago that I learned 

I can’t eat like a teenager 

All my life and not gain weight! 

At least now, I’m a Happy Learner. 

And I’m not fighting the information. 

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