back in then out

I’m finding there is little correlation 

Between sleeping pulse

And perception of a 

A good nights sleep. 

Rain helps more than anything. 

Spinach Dip. 

Adds crunch. 

I’m preparing for a dry fast

Like some Bloggers prep for a race. 

This will be like a Marathon. 

More to come. 

In my career, 

I now must admit

I’ve met my match. 

This little boy will hold his breath 

Until he passes out-

If I tell him to breathe. 

He will make himself hyperventilate 

If I try to get him to 

Slow his breathing down. 

He is fearless and careless 

And has taken back his control 

In the only way he can. 

By peeing all over the nurses. 

And painting his poop 

All over the walls. 

He screams and hollers

When it’s time to sleep. 

And sleeps all through school. 

He has no idea how dangerous 

His behavior is. 

And he doesn’t care. 

He just doesn’t care. 

So to keep him from 

destroying himself 

Out of pure defiance and spite-

We have dropped down to a 

Lower level of care-

With no pushing. 

No coaxing. 

After he hit me in the nose

The other day-

I knew I had to do something. 

The bad broody kid. 

GoodWill Hunting. 

Can I invest my energy and time

And let go of the outcome 

Almost completely? 

That is the question.