Χριστέ, ἐλέησον

Lord have mercy 

Christ have mercy 

I’ve reached my rockiest 

Rock Bottom. 

Which I didn’t think was possible. 

200 days of Kratom. 

No increase - up to 12 grams a day 

8 to 10 grams is baseline. 

I’m finally able to move,

Walk, bend, lift…

And think. 


Being in pain makes it hard to think. 

The Kratom made it easier to think. 

You can’t accomplish Maslow

If you’re doubled over in pain.

 

Garage door jumped the track,

and this screw came out. 

With force. 

Mom cooked Goat. 

It’s not as good just plain. 

The goodies make it good. 

I had one of those crying moments 

Where it’s like exhaustion,

Fear, fatigue, anxiety and depression 

All merged. 

I guess we think that 

if we get out ducks in a row,

They won’t swim off. 

And we can finally be happy. 

I’m certain I’m just tired 

Post COVID. 

weakly

Full moon 


Found those lost crayons 

Melted in the back of the car.  

Pity. From last summer. 

😎

It doesn’t do any good to hide

Things from kids to keep them 

From being ruined. 

That’s false logic. 

They’ll end up ruined anyways 

And no one used them. 

Just let the kids have them. Lol. 

I’ve been staying late 

So a 12 hour day

Is now a 16 hour day 

With overtime and driving. 

8 hours turnaround between shifts. 

I can do it a few times a year. 

Still on a Shrimp kick. 

This and Protein Powder Shake. 

Yes there are some carbs. 

Probably 30 to 50 a day. 

That seems to work for me. 

How to teach times tables. 

Example:

Each kid gets 3 cats. 

How many cats total? 

I tried to use Skittles for math,

But ended up eating them. 

Don’t eat the props. Lol. 

Sad and true. 

No room for propaganda 

From young, athletic men

Who were never obese. 

We are NOT the same. 

Memory day with Fergus. 

This is how the kids see me. 

They still draw the cat. 

Although he’s been home from here

(And now with me) for years! 

sofa king tired

Late nights. 

I stayed late to help

The night nurse with the treatments 

-which require some physicality- 

Simpsons clouds 

I see so many mistakes. 

It’s daily. Hourly. 

Me, giving report to night nurse: 

please give Tylenol

 to help this sick kid 

sleep through the night. 

He’s restless. 

Night Nurse: I didn’t give it.

 He was fussing and moaning all night. 

He sure kept me on my feet! 

I want to buy a sad trombone 

And whip it out every time this happens. 

Wah-wah-wah! 🎵 

Right after I broke my leg,

I could do 6,000 steps maximum. 

Then 10,000 steps for special occasions. 

Now I can get there regularly. 

Today! 

The comments on the 

Original Post actually defended him. 

They said he’s not there to worry 

“About his optics” or how he looks. 

Why fake wear a cowboy hat at all then? 

All hat. No cattle. 

Never forget the big moment 

Lol

Mosquito bites at work. 

One of the little patients said

My so-called  “Bingo Wings” 

Were actually nice “MUSCLES’

And I was like “Yep!”

And don’t you forget it. Lol. 

Helping a little family member 

(Precocious second grader)

Learn iPhone photography. 

It never gets old- seeing the red

In you fingers and face-

When you shine a bright light. 

Our goal is to be Artsy-Fartsy.