the worst case scenario

I overslept and kept hitting snooze. 

I got up at 6 and was at work by 7. 

That’s a first! And a last. 

Too much stress. 

Regular steps plus a 2 mile walk. 

It took 45 minutes. 

It was outside, paved, but hilly terrain. 

The City Of Dallas has a program 

For seniors. ASAP. 

Everything is free at the ref center

Or just for like $5 a month. 

It’s beginning to look a lot like traffic

Peanut Butter Beer. 

Butter Beer? 

I wanted some. But I did t have any. 

Went home and made Crack Slaw. 

It’s super cheap and easy. 

Carnivore Delight one plus. 

The fat likes the new sheets. 

I need to quit working so many hours. 

I really don’t like being at work at 7 am. 

I like getting more sleep. 

I asked my housemate how much he makes

Driving for Uber. He said he makes

Much more than me - and I 

Have a license in a stable,

Long term career. 

And he sleeps till 9 or 10 every day. 

Where do I sign up? 

errand day

Headache for a week 

After that HHC. 

I have created a sanctuary space 

For cats. 

Yesterday’s Salad 

2011 looking back. 

I must be reminiscing. 

This is before I broke my leg. 

Today’s Salad. 

Dallas isn’t exactly spectacular 

During the Fall. 

But it lasts only about 2 weeks 

So no biggie. 

Fergus helps clean. 

Cleaning out the freezer is always a chore. 

First World Problems. 

When you become an absurdist 

Who also practices Non Duality,

The best answer is to just 

Go along with everything. 

Cuz fuck it. 

It doesn’t matter!! 

Bwah HaHa!!!

wrong day

Headache all day. 

Went home early. 

Went to bed early. 

And here’s me with no Advil. 

I no longer keep Advil with me. 

Take one course of action-

Or another- for completely 

Diametrically opposed

Mutually exclusive outcomes. 

I woke up today (Sunday)

And thought it was only Saturday. 

And I was crestfallen. 

I love Nursing but it sucks sometimes. 

It’s a job where you’re on your feet. 

It’s hands on physical. 

Not like teaching.

Such energy is required! 

There are times that 

I’m not sure I have that energy. 

I know it wo T come from carbs. 

They make me sick. 

I haven’t been dehydrated 

Since o was in the hospital. 

In fact, I’m “juicy”. 

But when I eat carbs,

I physically get nauseated 

And light headed. 

Especially processed ones. 

Especially gluten. 

Never worth it. 

Not even one bite. 

After all- I already know

What they taste like! 

No excuses. 

omicron

Training myself to sleep without wine. 

So far, the mental battle is over. 

I can’t stand the thought of drinking again. 

A look back from my cardiac event in April. 

Much better. 

How to keep it that way.

I’ve done the mental, physical,

And emotional work. 

Make corrections for the next decades

 of my life. 

My life would have been over 

In 2009 if I had not found Atkins. 

Weed hits the streets

Perfect beautiful luscious day. 

Rain and Baroque music. 

All minor keys. 

The cult of the white make. 

Doesn’t hurt to also be upper middle class. 

Lol. Today’s memory. 

The four phases of pandemic nursing. 

1. What? Who did what?

2. It’s all good! 

3. Fuuuuck

D. Changed forever. 

So now comes Omicron. 

Pronounced “OMMIi crun”

Not oh-MIKe-ron. 

Live and learn. 

Delta Variant had 6 modifiers. 

Omicron has >30 so far. 

Many countries are back to lockdowns. 

2 years now. 

It’s entered the animal population. 

In wild dear. 

Nurses call this Phase 5. 

Many are scared. 

Many are leaving the field. 

Black Plague Friday

Just CBD and magnesium. 

Of/ and melatonin. 

I didn’t add date to the days 

I did t wear a watch. 

Cleaning out the freezer. 

A patient gave me this. 

I ate the whipped cream off the top. 

New lotion 

Well there ya go. 

A day old In N Out 

Double Double Animal Style 

Protein Style. 

Gets soggy. Don’t care. 

Ate it anyways. 

Once you gain, it’s like stochastics. 

Like 2 pounds up,

One pound maintained 

One pound down, 

2 maintained. 

Etc. If there’s a trend ,

It’s good to reverse it. 

Do you count 10 pounds gain? 

I gained 15 when I broke my leg. 

About where I am now.