blood in, blood out

Heart pounding all night. 

Even the cat was trying to reassure me. 

He’s very vocal. 

It’s like he was trying to talk. 

So cute. 

I woke up feeling like I had to throw up,

But it was like 10 hours since I had eaten. 

Guess what? 

Threw up food any way. 

This makes 3 times - 

Over the years. 

Old food and bile. 

Food from the night before. 

Bile vomiting is brown. 

Brown like chocolate syrup. 

This is a picture from Google. 

I knew it was duodenal 

Because I felt great after I threw up. 

Flying great. 

So I dug out the Prilosec, 

And vowed to cut down on Advil 

And especially take no Advil with wine. 

You’d think I know better lol. 

I don’t want to go to the VA during COVID-19. 

That would be a rough call. 

For something I can treat myself. 

This awesome salmon. 

With a Chardonnay reduction sauce. 

Oh my god. Slap yer mama. 

And so that is the story 

My my dumb ass

Not taking care of myself. 

My appendix area hurts. 

I get reflux every time I eat. 

Food gets “stuck” in my esophagus 

Like a hit of garlic bread I had the other day. 

Carb creep is reason enough to not cheat. 

Gluten is not anyone’s friend.