25 January 2019

new case


Crappy ass compromised sleep. 


Bathroom project is all but done. 




I enthusiastically tried 
To throw my heart and mind 
Into a new case. 
It was already a stand-alone disaster. 
And it’s not even been a few hours. 

I wouldn’t want me to be 
my baby’s nurse either. 
I’m a mess. 
I’m going to tell them - no more babies. 


24 January 2019

off to work I go


I have scheduled myself to work 
7 days this week 
Just to keep busy. 

I’m at a facility where
They feed the staff members. 
They brought me this. 
Oops- I ate the bacon already. 
Last night they brought a cheeseburger. 
It was pretty good. 

Still Snaking... down a pound
 a day even with food. 


Again. I was shocked
To see this. 
I though I slept well. 


This is how I feel. 
Not quite my old self. 
It’s so simple 
But none of this is easy. 

23 January 2019

snake bite


No wine. 
Still no good sleep.
I was shocked at this. 
To me, I slept well. 


Skinny legs. 
Floppy belly. 
Typical diabetes. 


Well, the stress of 
The Baby’s sudden death
Is taking a toll on me. 

This is first thing in the morning. 
Not bad, you might say. 
But not good. Especially for fasting. 


Are eggs the perfect food for 
Intermittent Fasting? 
I’m also off of coffee. 


Little Rug Rat bit me. 
It happens. 
Lol. Musta been hungry. 


I could not agree more.