cool days

Ahhh! It was 70° F

This morning. Nice. 

A quick 15 walk in the store

Before work. Haven’t had time 

To do that since Florida. 

😎

Meeting up with Della was

The best part of the trip! 

Cutting down the Delta 9 for sleep. 

The gummies are strong. 

And the effects are delayed. 

And I am naïve to thc d9. 

I need like 5 mg. Or less. 

Less is more. 


Supply side lol. 

Not for me. Lol. 

No Llama Noooooo!

No covering up signage. 

Poor things will probably 

have jail time. Since we live in a 

zero tolerance police zone. 

Instant teleportation to middle school. 

If you go back far enough, they say

You can even smell the mimeograph!

Ted Fled. 

Do we live in a crazy world. 

Every thing was bothering me. 

I was so mad I could not focus. 

Switched back to monster. 

More Vit B complex. Also Taurine. 

And adaptogens. And 150 mg caffeine. 

Half of what I was getting in C4. 

I was drinking way too much caffeine. 

That was making my angst worse. 

I would not have believed it 

If I hadn’t seen it personally. 

I had a phantom memory moment. 

Just like people do on TV. Nuts!

Back Story:

In Nursing School, my then GF and BFF

Was writing to me every day. 

Love notes. Such passion! 

We had been together through

 literally everything. For years. 

Since high school. 

On again. Off again. 

Cone here. Go away. 

Such mushy things we say in love. 

You're the only one for me. 

“I love you so much, 

It makes my heart hurt!”

I think about you every moment 

of every day. 

I can’t wait to see you! 

I’m so proud of you! 

And so on and so on. 

I cant wait to live with you! 

Just to say, it wasn’t some 

“maybe” casual relationship. 

It was assumed that after graduation,

And after the NCLEX, we would continue 

Together- with school and life. 

(Never assume!) 

And just make our way through the days. 

I never thought I was as smart as her. 

Although I had 3 different instructors 

Personally refer me to Medical School. 

So my Sweetie and I called each 

other from a pay phone - off base. 

I was at Fort Bragg! 

Airborne Rangers on one 

Side of our barracks. 

Special Forces on the other. 

We called every Tuesday night. 7 pm. 

It was long before cell phones. 

I loved her snd she loved me. 

Or so I thought. 

One Tuesday, via phone, 

completely out of the blue,

she said she was going to marry 

a guy named Randy in 10 days.

  I was like Who is Randy?

Obviously you’re seeing him? 

Can it wait? Till after the boards? 

What the hell? 

They did indeed marry in 10 days. 

I graduated in September. 

And sat for the boards in November. 

Must you give me gut-wrenching news 

Right before graduation? 

Nursing School is damn hard.  

Imagine Army Nursing School!!

I look back now and know 

it was sabotage. 

At the time, I thought she 

was being held against her will. 

Brainwashed by society. Nope. 

Well… I sat for the boards. 

I held it together. 

This was before don't ask- don’t tell. 

So its not like I could go to my 

Cadre’s Office for moral support. 

I was at my Reserve Unit in November

And deployed in December. 

In Germany in January. 

(Till like May or June!)

So the glitch in the Matrix occurred 

This week. Low-key awareness. 

And I finally, absolutely forgot those dates. 

This is the first time I didn’t remember 

And observe the dates. 

Progress after 33 years. 

Many of my friends are planning 

to leave Dallas for better climates. 

I hate it but I don't blame them. 

Its like I just last 2 months. 

Lol. Just getting by. 

Day by day. 

The past months of heat

Didn't help at all. 

Another song. 

Day By Day 

From Godspell.