Remember this from Junior High?
Well… this is how I lived my life
Up till the pandemic.
I already know the end.
So I never had this burning passion
To accomplish great things.
I chose to live a simple life.
Now I kinda wish I had
some of those trinkets and shiny things
that everyone else has.
I’m working on understanding
My ego. Why do I think
I would be better off with
More trinkets and shiny things?
It’s causing crazy cognitive dissonance.
There’s some fundamental belief
I need to root out.
Something I thought was one way-
But now I am finding out
It’s not that way at all.
Another nurse asked me
If I had any great epiphany
During my sick time with COVID.
Apparently, this virus makes you think.
Maybe that’s a good thing.
We’ve witnessed a global shit show.
One good thing is that
we don’t have to wake up every day
and check our phones to see if
World War 3 had broken out overnight.
Amen for that.
This hurts so bad.
It hurt in Austin in July.
I thought maybe I walked too much,
Or landed wrong and sprained it.
But now I can be rely walk.
It hurts like a knife.
Gradually doing more and more.
Coming back after COVID.
And I did t even have a bad case of it.
Bad enough.
My main symptom is fatigue.
Call in 3 months time
and I’ll be fine, I know…
Well, maybe not that fine
But I’ll survive, anyhow…
I have been questioning everything.
Our government is crazy
no matter who you vote for.
People are kinda crazy, too.
And often very mean.
It took me 60 years to figure this out.
Yes, our government is crazy, and people are too. I'm sorry you are so worn out, Covid just wrings you out. Your work doesn't help, the long hours...ugh. I think you made a good choice to live a simple life, I don't thinks the trinkets are worth striving for, which is easy for me to say, ha, because I don't have any either. It's a bummer about your foot hurting like that, no fair, you eat right and try so hard to do everything right, dang. I hope it gets better, and that you somehow get rested up...(I do think that Covid causes some degree of depression, wouldn't be surprised, so hang in there, it'll get better!)
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