worst day ever

I meditated all night 

When I couldn’t sleep. 

I got up early and walked. 

I’ve been doing my deep breathing 

To help with calming 

And Heart Rate Variability. 

I got up and read. 

“Share confusion and you are confused. 

For in the gap, no stable self exists.”

From A Course In Miracles. 

I’m Snaking Now. 

In times of stress, I’m not a binger. 

You won’t get me to eat 

Until this is resolved. 

So all the crap that’s gone on 

In this case, the case manager

 decided to write me up for fraud 

And violation of the Nurses

Code Of Conduct. 

She said I didn’t tell the office 

That the boy was at school. 

She thinks I committed fraud 

To sneak and keep $60. 

The regional manager was there 

(Probably to investigate the case manager) 

And said to write me up. 

They threatened me with legal action. 

I think someone dropped the ball, 

 and they started throwing people

 under the bus. 

She came to the patients home 

and reprimanded me 

In front of the patient and family. 

She should have done that in the office. 

I can’t eat. 

I can’t sleep. 

I can’t stop crying. 

In 30 years of Nursing 

I’ve never been reprimanded 

For anything. 

In fact, I’ve been 

Nurse Of The Year once 

And Nurse Of The Month

Many times. 

The family begged me not to quit. 

I’m not sure what to do.