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La la la last day this week. 

Day off tomorrow! (Today)

Happy Dance. 

Planning the food. 

Seize the day! 

Planning the festivities. 

Might watch tv and rest my brain. 

Is it too soon to repeat the liver function test? 

It’s only been one week. 

Should I wait 2 weeks? 

Pick up some Pho

Pho No! 

Tripe is not for me. 

Tendons? Hard pass. 

Yesterday Costco Egg Bites with 

Sugar-Free Syrup and Hot Sauce 

Many more steps but I was charging 

The Apple Watch- which already has 

A dismal battery life 

After one month. Shiiiiit!

Got home and a co-worker

Slash friend confronted me. 

She called and accused me 

of being “catty” and talking smack 

about her during report. 

It felt like this. 

She was raging furiously 

Because the Night Nurse asked in report

If Said Nurse might come in 

30 minutes early. 

I said it can’t hurt to ask! 

She doesn’t like to change, generally. 

She gets mad if you ask her

And even madder if you don’t ask. 

Night Nurse can just give 

report to the mom. And go. 

Not much is happening at 6 am. 

In Home Health, part of the contract 

Is that if no Nurse is available,

The family must provide care. 

My mother worked as a 

Medical Records Secretary  

In prestigious mental hospitals mostly. 

Namely, Timberlawn. 

Which was like the Betty Ford 

It paid better than General Hospitals. 

She loved Pop Psychology, 

Transactional Analysis, 

And the book Games People Play. 

This particular game is called 

“Now I’ve Got You,

You Son Of A Bitch!”

They won’t stop until you react. 

She’s been looking for an excuse 

to quit the case, and has been trying to 

cause fights with other nurses. 

Mom said she can just go. 

No problem. 

Nurses are Odd Ducks. 

90% of Nursing is getting along

With patients, families, doctors,

Staff members, and other Nurses. 

And all the knowledge and skill. 

And responsibility for human life. 

Well… I snapped back this time. 

I usually just take it. 

I defended myself. 

“No one said anything about you!

No one is talking about you in report!

Quit triangulating me 

Into a scenario I didn’t do!”

I matched her tone and volume. 

I should have recorded the call. 

And she hung up on me. 

She’s probably going to ghost the case. 

My housemate and I had 

some trauma bonding over it. 

I’m still stunned. 

Like I’m in midair. 

Waiting to come down.